Hello everyone, I feel silly getting myself worked up about this...but it’s getting to be a bit too much to think about on my own. Please stick with me, I know this post is long.
For the last two months, I’ve had these very vivid dreams. I was never one for remembering my dreams, I used to even be that person who thought I didn’t have dreams. But around 2 months ago I started remembering elements of my dreams, a faint memory of dreaming at first, to a full on ability to recall my dreams start to finish.
This all sounds fine, and for a time it was. But then I noticed that every dream had 3 common elements which I will explain below:
1) Red eyes - Somewhere in my dreams, there are ALWAYS red eyes. Whether it’s on an animal, a person, or just floating in the shadows. Red eyes are there, in every single dream. At first it was funny for me to play a sort of I-spy, when I woke up I’d laugh and say, oh another dream about eyes. But now, it makes me feel all sorts of nervous. Like someone’s just watching my dreams, which makes me feel like my privacy is being invade, though I know it’s just a dream.
2) Controling Female Figure: In all of my dreams there is a controlling figure. Literally so weird for me to think of it as a reoccurring symbol, but I did read that all reoccurrences can be symbolic. Anyways, this control figure is always female. Though 90% of the time I have NEVER seen this female before (which I know is inaccurate since the faces in your dreams are people you’ve seen before). Often this figure will tell me to do something, I’ll decline it, and then at the end of the dream I find out that what she had suggested was actually disastrous.
It’s weird how it happens so here’s a general example. The female might tell me to go drive to the store. Deep down I know I shouldn’t, so I don’t. The female gets mad and leaves. Then at the end of the dream someone random would say, “Did you hear about the big car accident?” And deep down in the dream I know that was something I avoided, or would have been involved in if I drove.
I’d also like to note that lately in these scenarios the conversations with the female are much longer and it’s more difficult to get out of the situations and just say no.
3) “Fame” - The final reoccurrence is a fame like feeling where everyone in the dream knows me, but not in a good way. They know me in the dream but are put off by me being there. They keep saying I should be elsewhere, but never give me an actual location, just that I should not be there.
Now, it this wasn’t enough, on the nights I do remember my dreams (I’d say 5/7 days a week) the following day, I have the most brutal case of déjà vu. It’s like, for a solid 3 minutes I’ll sit or do something and just feel so adamantly that I’ve done this before. I even sometimes feel like I know the direction a conversation is going, or that I’m about to have an emotional response. Never do I know what someone’s going to say, but I know, oh I’m going to be super sad/mad after this. Then The person might say something rude that upsets me.
I know this is long winded...but I hope someone’s able to help me out. It’s really starting to bother me.