I had second sight as a child. My now passed grandfather said they just be there dont worry about them. So I'll didn't and eventually second sight went away and came back and I started to see 1-3 hours into the future. Second sight went away. I moved into my ex husband house and worked on myself and read books, affirmations, meditations and just really worked on what I knew & felt I needed to grow for the past 5 years I developed my psy senses overtime through books and experiences but have no guidance outside of books and my true inner feelings.
Since getting into and out of an abusive relationship things changed. Seems like family member spirits try to abuse me or lead me astray so I ignore them whole heartedly, they seem to have invited unknown wayward with them to attempt to influence me to walk a wicked path and I'm not talking the whole balance of good and bad, they influence some evil shit at times.
I used to constantly battle against it then I realized they need me to react so I stop reacting and went to full ignore mood. I ignore them so much ots just second nature to ignore it all. They speak of negative stuff to try to scare me or influence negative behaviors but I know me very well so I dont get influenced.
Over the past 1.5 years I spent over 1000 bucks on readings and help because it gets so loud and cloudy that I have a hard time hearing the good. I realized that these spirits of negativity has deceived some readers claiming to spirit guides and healers and helpers but I'm not stupid, these spirits have not helped me just try to induce negative mental or emotional states in the Hope's to send me to a psychiatric ward or take credit for my downfall. They promote suicide and death. They also are egotistically trying to figure out who if the most high most holy most righteous mother/father GOD is them by me answering but they arent and I know that.
I take cleansing baths every night and read my bible and other spiritual books. I tried saging, salt house washes, other concoctions by people, angel calling, asking deities that was recommended by readers for help, staying away from mainly negative people, not watching a lot of negative TV, music and books, drinking sage teas, not responding to the spirits, self healing techniques, reiki.... also took breaks from doing work like listed above thinking maybe I was too clean. Seemed dumb so went back to actions listed above.
I decided to get baptized in Januray and see what happens afterwards.
My fiance asked why dont I ask them what they want. Well its not my job or duty to service all spirits who contact me. It's over 10 of them who speak and I cant guarantee that I will help them at all so to prevent them from being mad at me I dont help at all. It's not my job/duty service any and all spirits so I reaffirm that boundary by not interacting and ignoring them. Since it's mainly negativity they purport I see no reason to interact because I'm not inherently wicked.
Sooo. What advice does the forum have to offer?